things are so hard right now.
My baby moves in Mon. I have to start getting her stuff packed up on Fri. I know it is going to be good for her and she will be happy buttttt.
Having been cleaning toys and packing them with other stuff up and bringing car loads to my sister to sell. H does not know she is moving on Mon yet. The house is being listed for cash sale by a realotor I hired, she gets nothing if it doesn't sell. Told her I have no money for fixing anything or pay her. She thinks for sure she can get enough to pay the loan off and closing costs with a possibility of some extra for me, But I wont hold my breath on that. I am so overwhelmed that all I want to do is hide in the closet and cry!! I havwe to give him 30 day notice to get out but I need Mays mortgage from him. So mean and wrong but if he was a different person I wouldn't have to do it like this. He gives me the money on the 3rd. I have him sign the realtor paper saying he agrees to the lock box on house and his 30 day eviction notice. For the first time with him I am scared he will physically hurt me because of his mean and hatefullness to me lately. So I will make sure d is out and safe on the 1st, get the money on the 3rd and waite til the 4th for the papers. Realtor puts lock box on house on the 4th and lists the house.
I am just freaking out. It's all too much. I cant take anymore. I cant even begin to tell you how desperate I feel to be hidden. I know those feelings come from little but I have no time to go into it or help her in anyway, which also makes me cry. I am a F N mess lately.