I wish I could give you a hug.
This is probably the exact wrong thing to say. But sometimes having understanding and non-judgmental people just to be nearby makes such a difference.
I identify with what you said -- that sometimes fundamentalists teach that it's right to feel guilt for feeling fear.
How could that be right? Trusting in a higher power is about calm of soul and peace in heart. Guilt is more upsetting. I feel more anxious when I feel guilt and shame than when I feel only fear. But the right sense of presence takes away a need to feel a sense of shame.
I think because of that sense of guilt in addition to the sense of fear, I train out my legitimate fear feelings and train myself to feel calm because to be afraid would be a sin in someone's eyes. The fear itself is almost a greater danger than the danger -- not quite, depending on what the danger is or seems to be.
But people around me train that too. People are always trying to startle me amid threats of legal action for self-defense.
I think that for me, the fear of real consequences for feeling fear can overwhelm the fear and teach me to genuinely feel calm. But I think that might actually be less sane than it would be to simply be aware that I have an irrational fear, like you are.
Your ex didn't make you feel less fear? I think I would be less afraid in general if I lived with a man. But I have been told in the past that that is not a good reason to stop fearing and it's better then to maintain my startle response.
Anyway, you know what I think about crows? Their calls are so annoying that they'd upset anybody's nerves, fear or no fear. And they're not particularly beautiful or peaceful-looking, either.
I don't know about being attacked by Satan. The easiest way to interpret something is always the most familiar. Thinking about it in terms of peace of spirit seems much more sane than the conspiracy theories.